| long update |
[16 May 2006|09:50pm] |
so everything has been good latly.
ive been going out with ashley now for 2 weeks =]
i loveee her. its perfect.
shes everything i need.
been hanging out with danny and kbop a lot.
theyre my boys. seriously. im exicted for this summer
hopefully i get the job at maritas, and get to live down the shore.
ill be living with danny and ian if i get the job (in Sea Isle)
the show i through on friday went great.
i raised almost enough money to print my shirts.
im excited, i might wait until next year to print them though
i think it'd be hard to get shows together during the summer
with everyone at the shore and all.. i dont know thugh.
thanks to everyone who came out
ive been biking a lot latly. just got it back from getting fixed.
and playing a lot of hockey. roller and ice.
our roller team is 3-0-1 so far, we're not bad.
the ice team sucks. we play clearview on thursday
that will be an exciting game (theyre kingsways rivals)
listening to a lot of new music too.
set your goals. stick to your guns. silence breeds murder.
four letter lie. escaping autumn, drop dead gorgeous.
yea, not that you care. .
oh and ja rule.
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| KITE RUNNER |
[19 Apr 2006|08:36pm] |
"that was a very long time ago,
but it's wrong what they say about the past,
I've learned about how you can bury it.
Because the past claws it's way out."
so im reading this book called KITE RUNNER.
so far it's really good. and i hate books.
it's about a kid, whose grown up now
but he looks back on his past a lot
he's from San Fransico,
but something is with his race.
I'm still finding things out about it..
it feels good to read actually.
i used to hate it,
but things like this are interesting to me
!!
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[16 Apr 2006|10:28pm] |
this song i wrote
this one's for you<33
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| this sum's everything up |
[14 Apr 2006|10:40pm] |
I wanna live again
I wanna start everything over again
I wanna get this right
I'll meet you in another life
Over again
I'm coming back around again
Coming back over again
I'm coming back around again,
but now it's over
We're out of time and I can't breathe
I told you not to believe in me
'Cause all I do is push you far away from me
All I do is push you far away from me
Out of time and I can't breathe
I told you not to believe in me
'Cause all I do is push you far away from me
All I do is push you far away from me
I'm gonna make this work
I'm gonna change everything wrong with me
I'm gonna prove you wrong
when I meet you in another life
Over again
I'm coming back around again
Coming back over again
I'm coming back around again,
but now it's over
We're out of time and I can't breathe
I told you not to believe in me
'Cause all I do is push you far away from me
All I do is push you far away from me
Out of time and I can't breathe
I told you not to believe in me
'Cause all I do is push you far away from me
All I do is push you far away from me
I never had the gift of holding on to you
You're so far, so far away
No I, never had to give up of holding on to you
You're so far, so far away
I wanna live again
I wanna start everything over again
I wanna live again
I wanna start everything over again
We're out of time and I can't breathe
I told you not to believe in me
'Cause all I do is push you far away from me
All I do is push you far away from me
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[13 Apr 2006|10:56am] |
"ounce apon a time,
i met this boy .
ive known him for exactly a year and feel likei kno him better then anyone else i know.hes the most and the only amazing and non self centered person i met in my life. hes soo silly and cute i love him lots. i only feel safe with 2 people, him and maryjane. he's the apple in my eye the lava in my lava lamp and i think he shouldnt listen to people in his school. they can just go die. even if tht was him in the picture its non of there business and they shouldnt care. if thts what you want to do then do it. i hate seeing vincent sad.and i'm sorryy. i just want him to be happy, even if its with someone else or farther away. and i'm going to miss him terribly in the summer. and i remember when u used to hang out with me after school last year alot and tht makes me smile. II never wanna loose him hes my bestest friend ever.<3
[not]THE END!
lolololol this is what i do at 1 30 am "
now that made me smile..
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[12 Apr 2006|04:47pm] |
i dont know what to do anymore.
i love you
♥
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[06 Apr 2006|03:17pm] |
FUCK YOU
YOU DONT
EVEN
KNOW ME
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| FILL THIS OUT |
[02 Apr 2006|09:11pm] |
FILL THIS OUT
AND LEAVE IT AS A COMMENT
MAKE SURE YOU PUT YOUR NAME
COPY IT AND THEN FILL IN. . .
Put "X" next to the things you would honestly do with me......
[]Kiss me
[]Hug me
[]Date me
[]Kill me
[]Hit me
[]Hold me
[]Lie to me
[]Hurt me
[]Sing with me
[]Go to starbucks with me
[]Dance with me
[]Cuddle with me
[]Let me make a move on you
[]Make a move on me
[]take pictures with me and put them on myspace
[]Drink soda together
[]strap me in a baby seat at the mall
[]steal my hoodie =(
[]start a band with me
[]Talk about behind me back
[]Talk about me in front of my back
[]Watch a movie with me
[]Get me a B-day gift
[]Get me a B-day card
[]Let me borrow your car
[]Be there for me
[]Buy me a drink
[]smoke with me
[]Bring me around your friends
[]Drink kool-aid with me
[]Take advantage of me
[]Hangout with me
[]Take care of me if I wasn't feeling good
[]Hold hands with me
[]Two-Step with me
[]Count me as a friend instead of a myspace-friend-number
[]Marry me
[]Kick me
[]Love my hair
[]Come with me to walk my dog
[]Feed my turtle and watch him eat for fun
[]Watch a marathon of Rachael Ray
[]Drink soymilk with me
[]Go to a park and scream in german and scare the little kids
[]sleep in my room
[]Write a song about me
[]Send me a love letter
[]Send me a quarter
[]tell me i need a haircut
[]tell me i look like a boy
[]tell me you had a crush on me when you thought i was a boy
[]Make a lemonade stand with me
[]Have a light saber fight with me
[]hold hands with me
[]Do something incredibly sweet for me
[]tell me you love me
[]call me
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| ♥aww♥ |
[02 Apr 2006|07:37pm] |
xsizzlensplash: i only have three lifelong dreams
electrik x liar: and they are
xsizzlensplash: going to the bahamas, seeing dashboard live, and marrying you
she prety much is what i live for<3
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| so ive been thinking |
[02 Apr 2006|12:12am] |
ive been thinking about me
and this is what i came up with ;;
im vin
i am 15 years old
i love music
i love guitar
i love to surf
i love the beach
i can count my friends with my fingers.
i have trouble trusting people
i think people have troubel trusting me
i wish i could play keyboards
and i wish i had a good voice
i wish i could say the right things at the right momement
i use "i promise" when i probably shouldn't
i keep a journal.
and i write things that i'd never let anyone read in there
i've done a lot of stupid things in my past
and people won't let me live that down.
i've lost and gained some of the best friends in my life
i've learned a lot of lessons going through CKS
i learned that everything is about who you know, not who you are
i learned that everything is about how much money you have.
i leanred that no matter wether your wrong or right, to them, your always going to be wrong
i learned that no matter who you are, people will judge you differently.
i love to take pictures
i love to look at pictures
i love sleeping
i love my camera
i love walking on the beach with people
i love the shore.
i love my cousin daniel very much
he is my best friend in the world.
even if we don't talk much anymore
i miss eveyrone i've met in my life
i miss everyone from Cancun
i miss everyone from the Shore
i miss being best friends with Mike
i miss all the good times we had.
i miss nicole a lot
she was the best ever
i miss being best friends with devin
but i hope we become best friends again soon
i hate how everyone smokes.
and how everyone drinks
i dont ever want to be like that
i don't fit a mold
i like to be myself.
i like to ride my surfboard
and lay on the beach
and hangout on the boardwalk
i love the sound on a piano
espeacilly with a girl singing over it.
i feel like i could run away and not many people would be effected.
i feel like if i wasn't here, it wouldn't make much of a difference
most people i end up meeting hate me
but i guess im a hate me or love me kind of person?
i love going to concerts.
theres only about 5 places where i feel safe
and where i am totally happy.
1 when im surfing, or out on the water
2 when im down the shore in general
3 when im with sean
4 when im at my own house
5 when im with neale
i have like 5 notebooks full of random stuff
just writing and things that happen.
i don't know why i keep them
and i don't know why i ever look at them
because it just makes me look back
at the things that happened, and i dont like it
most of them involve shit with school at CKS
and i hate that place.
it showed me how much people judge you
and knwoing that i wasnt like them
that they weren't going to like me
i act like i am tough
but im really not
liek i said, im only comfortable in like 5 places.
im not verywell liked.
if you say something to my friends
i will say shit back to you
i won't fight you
i hate fights
i've only got in 2 fights.
and i don't like it at all.
a lot of people want to fight me
but i dont even know why
they say im an embarresment
and that i look like a girl
whatever, you just will never be me.
i have a shoe box full of picutres
of all of my friends.
theres over 300 pictures in it.
and thats what i look at to make me happy
and it just about always works.
i look back at times i had,
and it makes me so happy
but then i look back at other things,
and i just loose it
i'm a verysenseitive person.
i get offended very easily
but i'll never let you know it.
i keep thing inside for way to long.
sometimes i want to just give up
but i know i never will
im not a quiter by any chance
you can knock me down,
ill just get right back up
i think my family is the best
i hate when i hear peopl talk about their family
and that they hate their dad or mom
becasue i absoultuly LOVE my mom and dad.
they have taught me everything i need to know.
they let me be myself.
they make me feel comfortable talking to them about anything
they know who i am, and know what i like.
i alos like my sister al ot.
we fight once in a while.
but i think she knows i'll be there for her no matter what
and id feel really dumb if she read this
but i dont care.
i would do anything for her, and i thnk she knows that.
i like going to concerts
becasue i met people like me there
and thats all i need.
people who like the same things as me
i cant sleep when im upset
like right now
and i've been writing this for an hour
i'm done now. .
- i like the person i've become but most people dont. i'm not emo. i'm not scene. you don't know what emo and scene is. i dont even know what emo and scene is. everyone changes music into personalities and they are noway alike. i do like music that im sure you don't but whats the have to do with me? just because i listen to screamy music or something doesn't mean im sad. i've actually been very happy latly and don't loose it very often. i've had some good things into my life recently that have really helped me out
- i like who i've become close to. i think sean is the best thing thats happened to me in a while. he's there for me. he keeps me in line. he knows who i am. i know who he is. he respects what i like. i respect what he likes. he has my back. i have his back. and he knows were brothers. and we'll always be there for eachother. BLOOD IS FUCKING THICK
- i decided i hate school. and i don't want to go there anymore. but i don't have anywhere better to go. i don't have like any friends. but whatever. i don't need that i guess. i have who i need. and i don't need much. i'm doing okay in my classes, i guess. i should be doing better but oh well. report caards come home soon. im excited for break. i can't wait to get off for a week.
- oh yea, school. everyone thinks im gay? what the fuck. what about me makes you think im gay? beacause my hair is long? come on everybody has long hair these days, so why am i gay? shut the fuck up, yyou don't even know me
- i've become really insecure with myself. and i don't know why. i like everything ive become. i like who i am. sometimes. most of the time. but i don't know why? maybe i'm not used to being the new kid? i guess i'm used to being the one who isn't scared of anything. but now i am. im scared of everything now and i have no reason to be. i'm myself, and thatst more then most people can say about themselves.
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| k so um |
[02 Apr 2006|12:01am] |
i went to the mall yestedray
with callie and sean and ariel and laura.
it was fun
we ended up walking to guitar center.
and i saw MAUREEENN at tower records.
mhmm yea it was pretty much a perfect night.
=]
tongiht i went to heights
with devin sara ashley tmurph john d alec ashley and john motz.
it was fun. i missed that gangg.
it was good to see futon ashley again.
i hanv't seen her in forever.
and now.
im in a bad mood
and i probably should be sleeping considering its late.
but im not
and i cant.
and i cant go to sleep thnking like this.
i need to get out
and leave.
and go to the shore.
sdakghas i miss everything
why do i always mess things up?
in a car underwater with time to kill
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| stupid survey |
[29 Mar 2006|06:57pm] |
[[SINCE THE BEGINNING OF THIS YEAR-2006]]
1. HAVE YOU HAD A GF/BF? nope.
2. HAVE YOU HAD YOUR BIRTHDAY? no, its in december duh
3. GOTTEN DRUNK? no i havn't
4. GOTTEN HIGH? no i dont do that
5. SMKOKED A CIG? mmh no
6. CRIED? noppe
7. HAD SOMEONE CLOSE TO YOU PASS AWAY? nope, luckyly
8. PULLED AN ALL NIGHTER? haha rubberneckers, yes
9. DRANK STARBUCKS? yess probably to much
10. WENT SHOPPING? duhh yes
11. BEEN CAMPING? haha wtf no
12. BEEN TO THE BEACH? yea boyy
13. BOUGHT SOMETHING FOR OVER $200? yes sir
15. BEEN OUT OF STATE? yeahhh
16. VISITED A FAMILY MEMBER? yupp
17. GONE SNOWBOARDING? nope, i snow skate holla
[[LASTS]]
1. LAST THING YOU BOUGHT? shirts off bleeding starr
2. PERSON YOU HUGGED? elysia. its her berfdayy
3. PERSON YOU TALKED TO? daniel charles garrison
4. PERSON TO CALL YOU? haha my mother
7. LAST THING YOU SAID TO SOMEONE? "byyyeeee"
8. LAST TIME YOU BRUSHED YOUR TEETH? this morning
9. LAST TIME YOU TOOK A BATH? i just got out
10. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? not recently
11. LAST TIME YOU FELT STUPID? 1 second ago
12. LAST TIME YOU WALKED OVER 1 MILE? well i just biked all over the country.
not that you care.
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[25 Mar 2006|01:05pm] |
so firts game of tthe tournment,
sucked. we lost, 5-3
i got a 15 mninute misconduct.
GAYYY
i hit this kid
and he turned
and fucked his shoulder up
so i got a penelty.
whatever.
it was a clean hit
hes just gayy
don't play with them
if you cant take it
faggs
oh people read my old journal entries now
and make jokes about it. ahaha
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| um |
[24 Mar 2006|06:42pm] |
its friday night
and im staying in
because im not invited.
like usual.
thats 2 weeks in a row
its callies play tonight
she's acting as a man
hah, so i couldnt go
becasue she said i would
"see her differeently then"
oh well.
im staying in
fuck you
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| k um |
[20 Mar 2006|09:17pm] |
i need to get away from everything
i could use a trip to the shore or something
i've just been freaking out lately,
about NOTHING.
schools gay. i fucking hate it.
nobody likes me, fuck them.
schools over in 2months
oh that means the SHORE
asdgasdgs
i need you
and i cant wait
more then 25 days♥
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| so i wrote this exactly one year ago |
[14 Mar 2006|10:14pm] |
this was me, exactly ONE year to this day;
Vinny
° I say whats on my mind.
° I hate when people talk about me
° I wish i was cooler
° I dont like people who judge me
° I wear whatever i feel like wearing
° I wish i lived in Ocean City
° I love to surf, its my favorite
° I like to play guitar.
° I say things that i regret
° I wish i had more friends
° I like to write.
° I wish i was smarter
° I hate promising people things
° I am the most obnoxious person
° I want to go to college
° I wish i could explain myself better
° I could care less if you hate me
° I like Senses Fail
° I want to live in California.
° I am finally done with this
° I take life day by day
° I think regret is just a waste of time
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° I wish i was better at everything
° I dont thnk i do anything good.
° I like music way to much
° I miss way to much.
° I think im better off alone
° I wish i met someone who could understand me
° I dont want to grow up
° I play ice hockey
° I dont think im funny at all
° I think i have a good personality
° I am me, and your not changing me
° I am defintly a leader.
° I can usually have fun wherever i am
° I say "forever" "i promise" when i shouldnt
° I think im different then most people but i dont care.
° I love neon colors.
° I can be very immature, but serious too.
° I like to take risks, ive got nothing to loose
° I prefer scary movies more then funny
° I can take pain better then anyone i know.
° I like helping people out when they need it
° I dont sleep much
ska;dlhgsd
and i guess its pretty much still the same?
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| reminder for myself |
[12 Mar 2006|09:25pm] |
oh this is for me;
she likes being kissed
in the rain ♥
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[12 Mar 2006|09:18pm] |
so today
i went to a show at Calvin Hall
with Exit 4, No Regrets, Horrible Idea.
I only stayed for Exit 4
but it was fun
it was only sean, t murph, donald, alexis and nicole.
but we had fun anyway
there was a total of like 20 people inside. haha
then iwent to roller hockey
i had a pretty good game?
we lost 5-7 to pennsuaken
oh well, theyre good
k im done
oh ps, one day down
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| so last night, |
[12 Mar 2006|12:27pm] |
we all just hungout in heights.
it was alright i guess.
i saw donny again, i missed him.
and cody. and ashweeee.
so i guess it was kinda fun
not really though.
i just wanted to be home
im done.
no more getting with people.
don't believe me?
i'll just prove you wrong. . .
just shut your eyes
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| k this is going to be longg |
[11 Mar 2006|12:28pm] |
Alright, im just going to go on and on here
because i feel like i need to?
I don't know why this is even on my mind
but i've been thinking about Christ The King a lot.
And how much they made me who i am.
I think that I am so defensive because of them.
I think that i stick up for what i think is right, because of them.
I think that as much as i hated everyday at CKS,
it made me who I am now, which i happen to like.
(( and personally, i dont care if you do ))
Mrs Gaffney is getting fired at the end of the year,
and that's all the matters to me.
I am doing good in school, so fuck her and everyone else there.
And for that other kid, oh he's transferring so FUCK HIM.
hahah, sorry that your daddy can't win your battles all the time.
And for all the people who thought I'm a bad kid
need ot get the fuck over themselfs, becasue im better then all of them
k im done with that, theyre gay.
I've been relizing that I dont have a lot of friends.
But i also relized, that I dont care aobut being popular.
I think i have all the people in my life that i need right now.
My friends are seriously the best, and i wuvv them.
(( you all know who you are ))
We have all went through so much shit,
but we're still close, and i love that.
So fighting?
Everyone in the fucking world hates me
but like i said, i dont care.
I lied
I do care
because im not a fighter.
And theres only like 2 people that have a good reason
And i decided that im changing.
and im done getting with people.
And im only going to get with someone,
if im going out with them
because it just fucks things up for everyone.
vsaoghsdohgsakldkglh
so whats the point of waking up?
when everyday has two incentives.
i close my eyes, just wake me up
when you think this is over.
i wish you the best ♥
i wish you the best,
- Robbie Gold
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